https://days.to/until/18-jan-2018
If I am 25 and I still have not accomplished adepthood in my magickal practice I will be killing myself. Not because I don't believe in magick but because I am too weak as an individual and I feel that is a critical date by which if I don't have my shit together I never will. Mentally I feel completely prepared to do this, I have traveled the astral so often death doesn't worry me much, although the loss of my physical body may be something of a calamity; still I think that there will only be decline from 25 if I don't accomplish what I have set out to do. I think that if I don't succeed in my goals by then and I don't kill myself it will be dishonorable and my deteriorating condition will drag others down. It just seems like the best thing to do then all things considered.
t. Fringe Wizard
What is it I intend to do?
I want to complete a persistent and powerful thoughtform, possibly linked to a physical object such as a doll or a rock, along the lines of what is detailed in Step 8 oh IIH.