Hello everyone:I understand that we've all been janitors and moderators for varying amounts of time, but I also want to acknowledge that we are all in this together for the site and for the users. This post is to represent something that I want to put out there for everyone: how is your mental health?I understand that we are exposed to the most abhorrent nonsense users have to offer, and I want to make sure everyone is doing okay. Sometimes the stuff posted on site can get to a person, myself included, with things in their personal life and things that get posted online. Recently in my life, there have been a lot of changes, like moving away from family and friends and adjusting to a new way of life, so what I ask of you today is: How are you doing?
>>8828pretty good, all things considered. there could of course be some improvements here and there, but that's kind of par for the course for 4chan users, and honestly just people in general. things are actually going pretty well for me right now. better than they have been over the past couple years, at least. so i guess this is to say, keep up the good work, everyone, and continue to try your best. that's what really matters. do that and i'm sure things will turn out okayi hope this doesn't come off as too idealistic or patronizing. i really do mean it
>>8828I have only been here for a few months but I really enjoy helping improve the experience of myself and others on these boards.Regarding life stuff, I have been going through a really tough time for the past few years but I finally reached out to a doctor and now I'm seeing a psychiatrist and a psychologist.I hope it gets better from here on and best of luck to you guys as well.
Pretty shit but it is what it is.
>>8828I'm relatively new, since the most recent cycle, but jannying is hard. I have young daughters and every time I BR for CM/CP it makes me worry for the world they live in and the people they'll meet.Today a crush porn ban broke me. I have a dog and seeing what I saw made me cry. Mainly because the dog, as loyal as it was, was just taking it despite bleeding profusely.I work in a field where I deal with a lot of ptsd, especially veterans and first responders, but even I wasn't prepared for that.I'll be better tomorrow but as for this day, I know :as much as I fight these dicks, they will still be there after I am done. It's sisyphean.Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.
>>8840>I know :as much as I fight these dicks, they will still be there after I am done. It's sisyphean.yeah, that can be a struggle, but you have to remember, by removing that shit you're preventing dozens of other anons from having to see it and have their own nights ruined
>>8840I remember the first time I saw shovel dog gif. I had a german shepard at the time, and it was a little close to home for me.
>>8840>It's sisyphean.one must imagine the janitor happy
>>8845there is a fundamental absurdity in knowing your day will begin and end the same way : sighing as you look at a picture of an Apu with bushy 70s pubes
My mental health is pretty good anon, thanks for asking. I dropped to part time at my career job to have extra time to run my business, and my business is doing well. Money is coming in and I am able to have a lifestyle that I never thought possible. I know it's hard out there for a lot of people, and I really don't know what to tell them except vote yellow next election.
>>8849I'm glad to hear! Keep up the good work, and keep on being a successful, hot-pocket wealthy janny
Just saying: if and when someone decides to leak /j/ again I bet this will be a thread that will get focused on and reposted. Mainly because it validates anyone going out of their way to have a negative impact on you. So if you care about your personal feelings being incessantly ridiculed as a general "fuck you", I wouldn't post it. >>8829Mostly the same. Also >i hope this doesn't come off as too idealistic or patronizing. i really do mean itEven though I haven't been here for that many years and can't speak for all boards or the mod side of things, I've noticed that the actual day-to-day moderation seems to operate more consistently and effectively since when I started. Makes sense considering that after each round of applicants you'll wind up with at least a few more people who are a good fit for the responsibility that will stick around indefinitely. >>8830>I've felt a little defeated recently as it seems like I'm always removing the same things and not much improves. During onboarding I was told something along the lines of>you can't delete your way into qualityAnd I think that is valuable to consider. Nature abhors a vacuum, so merely removing something doesn't remove the motivation for posting it in the first place. If you want a certain quality to be present, the most effective thing you can do is contribute it yourself. At worst you've made a post that achieves that quality, and at best you'll interest others in posting in a similar quality.
I've been thinking a lot about how to reply to this thread since it was made. I think I've been on an upward trend since then. I've got problems like everyone else does, and I cope with them in various ways (booze, weed, cigs). it sounds corny as hell, but helping 4chan be the best that it can be is one of those things that helps me cope too. I saw a person post "based jannies" on one of the generals because I deleted porn fast enough to the user's liking (i.e. instantly). a mod said that I was doing a good job. These things made my day.There are days where I feel very lonely. I see a lot of vitriol on my boards and it affects my worldview in ways I can't control and I feel helpless because it feels like the world is going to shit. But there's a world outside of 4chan, twitter, reddit, the internet overall. sometimes you need to get up and take a nature walk. Look at a leaf. smell the grass as the wind blows up a field by the sidewalk. take off your socks and shoes and walk ankle-deep in some water (ocean, river, lake, etc). life moves fast today, and being on 4chan (especially jannying) is like an endless dopamine feed. Really, truly - touch grass. It's actually good for you.I've been exercising this year, probably for the first time in my adult life, and - spoiler alert - it actually has improved my mental health. You hear this all the time because it's fucking true. It's hard to get started at first, but after about 3 or 4 months I really started noticing how good I felt. This has cascading effects. feeling good means I can cook for myself instead of getting fast food, I can go for walks in the evening, I have the energy to play video games with my dad.I turn 30 this year. I'm still very lonely. I live alone, tfw no gf, not many IRL friends. but I think if you learn to take care of yourself, focus on learning how to exist independently, and think with an optimistic mindset - you will make it. Falling down is allowed, getting back up is mandatory.picrel
>>8828>>9342>>8857>>8840>>8835>>8834>>8830>>8829
I am the most mentally stable anon on this entire board.
Life has been rough lately, sometimes feeling like I'm not in control of where I'm heading, or slaving away for those around me. I try to have hope things will get better, with the help of others.
Radio's on, I'm feeling alright, cruising the strip on a saturday nightI smile and I wave and I hide all my painbut the sign on my bumper gives me awayHonk if you're lonely tonightif you need a friend to get through the nightjust toot on your horn, flash up your brightshonk if you're lonely tonightI know a honkey-tonk where we can goa booth in the back with the lights way down lowa jukebox that's playing a sad melody for heartbroken lovers like you and mewe'll laugh and we'll flirt and we'll dance every dancebefore the night's over we'll make romancethe morning will find us with a smile on our face and we'll be together in a lover's embraceHonk if you're lonely tonightif you need a friend to get through the nightjust toot on your horn, flash up your brightshonk if you're lonely tonightI know it seems sad to be so damn bluebut there's always the chance that you'll meet someone newI know that somewhere, waiting for meis a sad lonely lover with a bumper that readsHonk if you're lonely tonightif you need a friend to get through the nightjust toot on your horn, flash up your brightshonk if you're lonely tonight
>>8828feels bad, manhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhRzORqNa0E&pp=ygURdGltZSBhbGFuIHBhcnNvbnM%3D
A lightning strike hit next to my place and among all the fucking PCs I have, it fried only my ETH validator. Spent 3 hellish, sleepless days rebuilding it from scratch while bleeding money and being terrified I had lost everything.I managed to fix everything in the end, but I mean, what are the fucking chances? Please give me a break, I just want to relax.
>>9363really hoping you are keeping backups. If not... you know what to do.
>>9363>he got through to the other endi'm proud of you, janny.
desu the repetition of the shitposting I mop everyday is getting stale, I may take a break for a while
>>9364>you know what to doW-what
I'm okay. The weather has been very nice lately, so I've been going on longer walks again.
>>10022good to hear! walks are nice.
I wish we had like a sfw version of r9k. I need a space where i can vent when im feeling lonely and miserable that doesnt have loads of gooners obsessed over porn.
>>10318>>>/s4s/ is generally pretty work safe
>>10319when I have glanced at in the past it always struck me as a bit more of a comedic space. But I will try and check it out more ty !!
>>10321[s4s] is more shitposty but I think they will probably take you seriously if you post seriously. and, not even joking, /b/ may take you seriously but it's obviously a wildcard
this has been an influence for a net positive?? on my life for almost 2 decades, thank u 4chan for still surviving
haven't been a janny long, but i've been on 4chan for a pretty long time. it's interesting to me that a lot of the crap I used to simply tune out I now have to actually deal with and see if it is breaking rules. I think before I started doing this I simply ignored it without giving it too much thought. that said even though we see a lot of really screwed up shit its definitely offset to me by seeing people posting actual useful advice when they get nothing out of it, and seeing people getting actual useful advice. also without sounding excessively philosophical I think clearing a lot of the reports is just as satisfying. I may not like some of the idiotic posting that happens, but the fact that it has a place to exist where you can post with a reasonable chance of maintaining your anonymity and not suffering reprisals for your opinions is important, in a way it's kinda cool to be in a small part helping to defend that. obviously if something is breaking a site rule we deal with it, but I think it's important that we aren't telling people if their ideas or good or bad. just that they are in fact allowed to have them here and someone elses opinion wont invalidate that.
>>10319>>10321[s4s] is super fun but not really safe for work :3
>>10388duck yu
>>8828>mental health thread gets bumped>4chan goes downthe lesson is clear: internalize your misery and the site persists, janiteam is the kid in Omelas
