>>56517
I once had a 'breakthrough' of some sort. I don't know what type of magick it was but I felt like a god. Supreme confidence, started affecting the world, blah blah etc.
Any way it's completely uncontrollable for me and I end up getting locked in the mental hospital. Get thrown on Teva-Olanzapine and it made me an emotionless husk of a human with chunks of memory loss. Eventually I return to my former glory only to (once again lol) lose control of the increased power and get myself locked away. This time I'm put on different drugs that take away any spiritual inclination, but don't rob me of being a mundane who can at least play video games and socialize.
About 4 years later I slowly start learning /fringe/ material and realize that while I was 'psychotic', the things I was doing were beyond the mainstream level that we're taught humans are capable of.
Things of note:
-First time I get locked away
>short, fat, bowl cut woman comes into my containment cell
>should be nothing to me
>looks at me with the coldest eyes I've ever seen
>sense something dark about her
>she appears to be reading my thoughts
>get the impression that she is the step above local law enforcement who is called into to assist with the 'supernatural' cases
>cows me completely and reacts to my thoughts as if I was saying them out loud
Another one:
-During second stint of mental hospital (year after the first)
>interacting in the outside area of the containment units with the other 3 prisoners
>woman comes in to interview me
>"Do you know why you're here Anon?"
>instantly I become suspicious and give her the mundane reason
>"uh yes because I was doing drugs and the withdrawals from quitting suddenly, along with poor nutrition and lack of sleep and reading things online"
>she looks at me hard and lets the silence hang in the air between us
>"I think you know the real reason" she says coldly
>I feel a chill run down my spine and just repeat what I said above
>she narrows her eyes and snorts before standing up and leaving
>a 1 minute interview regarding my mental health from someone outside of the facility. Strange…
>After she leaves, the old Witch in the room tells me I did a good job and offers comforting words.
>this same Witch would hear me recite lyrics in my head and often tell me to "play my music box"
Another during second stint
>sitting with a doctor and two nurses
>mandatory session with various questions
>I'm 'flexing' my energy and visualizing waves of golden light pulsating from my body
>abruptly the Doctor stops what he's doing and looks over at his nurses and says with a smirk "I think Anon knows more than he leads on". They giggle and nod their heads.
Another
>sitting in TV room
>look at the television
>some Beyonce song is playing
>I had been having strange thoughts about Beyonce so I take interest
>the TV warps and it looks like a wyrmhole reaching out into the room
>colors start floating every where like miniature stars
>I hear footsteps behind me
>it's a nurse who's really nice and this new patient that came in recently
>the new patient had been trying to talk to me, but I rebuffed his advances
>he looks at me and I turn my vision that felt supercharged on him
>him and the nurse give me long, searching looks
>she says under her breath something along the lines of "see he's good" or something like that
>she tells him that he needs to get out of here quickly before they discover him
>she (the nurse) gets him a jacket and he power walks out of the facility wearing full patient garb
>the new patient from yesterday just straight walked out with a civilian jacket over his scrubs and never returned
>I'm perceiving this but am somewhere else entirely and don't think it's strange