Where should I go from here?
I feel like a broke through some kind of barrier and was made aware of spirituality during a very intense LSD trip about six years ago. Full blown telepathy and thought sharing. I'm still not really sure I understand the mechanics of consciousness, or why it works.
What I do know is I can make some tingly shit happen in my spine and crown, "project"/flex my energy so others can sense it, and from time to time have some strong telepathic experiences. I feel that my thoughts influence reality (and that other can pick up on it) more or less constantly, it's simply a matter of to what degree and how much attention is paid at any given moment.
I've read the Kybalion and tried meditation on and off without really sticking to it. That's about the extent of it. Other than that
I've just kind of been waffling around with no real direction as to what I'm supposed to do with this and it's lead to some stagnation.
I also feel somewhat disheartened at times because I feel there is so much we are kept in the dark about and that most modern systems assault your consciousness and spirit pretty much constantly. I have turned to alcohol, tobacco, pornography and masturbation for the past few years to cope in general and it's undermined my development in this arena.
Can somebody give some advice as to what to study that is manageable to start with? I come here and ask because I have kicked the booze, tobacco, porn and masturbating for about a month now and feel that I can finally turn a corner at this time in my life.
It's frustrating because I still feel some kind of connection to the aether but I just don't know what to do to develop it or what to do with it period. It's overwhelming.
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