I know this board is probably the best that some of us can get, but its weird that you made it that far.
It remember being very much a mundane. I remember getting interested in the paranormal. I did experiments and meditations for 2-3 months until I got solid results. Telekinesis in a sealed container, controlled 1 meter wide wind gusts in a field of grass, water vibrations in a body of water… All of this seen by at least 7 of my friends and family.
And I am pretty sure most of us have had this experience.
Let me guess, you did a lot of reading, but you just cant dedicate yourself for a few months to something. On 4chan, I wouldn't even care, but now that you have made this this far, either choose to actually investigate(practically) this stuff or drop it. Sitting on two chairs wont do you any good.
And you are clearly reaction farming, I mean, you come to the one of the most hard core esoteric boards and you expect to meet people who are too afraid to actually push the limits of reality?( because those who do, always get a response)
Man, what are you doing with your life.