>>123371
fasting and cold showers can help. I personally think the biggest benefit of fasting is it gives you awareness of your own body and your ability to control your urges and that in conquering those urges you develop your sense of control.
Let me give you a little anecdote that will hopefully help you, as it is relevant. I was injured in Iraq. Had an artillery shell go off less than 10 feet away from me. Rang my bell real good. Ever since that happened I had horrible headaches, dizziness, and a complete lack of energy to the point of constantly feeling ill. No medicine ever worked for it. And it was absolute torture. Felt like I was living in my own personal hell. It is also how I discovered "magic".
I put magic in quotes because I dont believe magic is a good description. The word magic implies that you are performing the impossible. But, no, in truth what you are doing is making the impossible possible. And, the truth of the impossible is that the only things that are impossible is what we believe is impossible. Change that belief and enter paradox
Now, I was at the bottom of my rope, the pain and lack of energy had really fucking destroyed me. And then I literally stood up from the couch I was sitting on, wasting away, and declared "Fuck this everything that is wrong right now is only wrong because I allow it to be. This is all in my head, all of it, everything, and I do not desire to live like this and thus I will not"
At the time I had zero knowledge of the esoteric. Those words just came to me. And, even to this day, that was the most powerful spell I have yet to cast. My headaches subsided greatly. And after a few days of constantly reaffirming these "power-thoughts"… I hit the ground running and nothing could stop me.
Words, your thoughts… The words you think and the definitions and boundaries to which you define them are magical.
With that in mind, try this: Think about everything that is a problem for you, take a total inventory of it. And then think of the results that you want. At first don't go overboard with it, think about the things that you want that you can say honestly that you believe you deserve and will be a good thing for you. And then think about those problems again. Those problems were obstacles from which you were supposed to learn something about yourself. What could the lesson have been? Do you think you've learned those lessons well? If not, ponder them. But if you think you have learned those lessons well then you have completed your task. Those problems are going away. Your health is returning. You are growing stronger. Your vitality returns. Your metabolism is correcting itself and all these things are currently taking place, they will not begin later they have already begun and they will continue to take place. You are becoming whole again.
Focus on those thoughts constantly. Walk tall, keep your shoulders and head high, and think those thoughts as you go about your day. And, very importantly, smile. Even if it has to be a forced smile. And it does not have to be an outwardly apparent smile, just a slight smile enough to give you the feeling of a proud and happy glow. Associate the act of smiling, and this glowing sensation with wholesomeness and you will find yourself at one.
If you ever slip and forget yourself a bad couple of days can do that to you take great strides to be able to find that starting point again.
Also, if you could do me a favor, after you have done this and you find that it does in fact work, respond to this post again so that other anons can see that I am dropping gigantic fucking pearls of wisdom right now.