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Yesterday while trying to attain more GAINS I made a terrible mistake, I added shellfish (baby clams) to my various other stuff in the blender…

The result was horrible. It smelled terrible, made me puke, I tried to eat as much of it as I could before eventually giving up and throwing the rest of it outside. I then went about cleaning up the mess while puking more and cleaning up that too for like a half hour.

I eventually just left the kitchen, went to the bathroom and cleaned myself very heavily, even put soap in my nostrils and mouth, and rinsed everything out.

Then I went to my bedroom. I feel asleep reversed in my sleeping spot on the floor, my head where my feet would normally be. I was lucid as fuck but those wretched, cursed clams were bringing my vibration down to a very low level.

An entity calling itself Satan began talking to me. I told me about a witch gang in British Columbia that worshipped him. The entity was trying to bring me under its control and use me as another black magician in its arsenal. I was very helpless to resist it.

I called upon the name of Jesus, multiple times in several different ways, and it did absolutely fucking nothing. Satan did not mock me. He just continued to tell me about his Witch gang, showing me a detailed map, and trying to take over my body. Black energy was creeping in from everywhere and I just tried being as still and calm as I could and funnelling white light energy in through my crown chakra and into my body and my aura. I could hardly resist but managed to counter the intense negative vibes I was getting from this Satan entity for a long time while he tried to take control of me. My astral body also was easily dislodged from my physical body and I did manage to stumble down the hallway of my house in astral form and banish some entities coming through some portal in another part of my house and to shutdown the portal. That managed to stop a lot of the attack but not completely.

I got back into my physical body and gradually pushed back the bad vibes while talking to Satan. At some point I got up then and forced myself to get on my tablet and post a few messages about the ordeal before resuming it by forcing myself to lay in my sleeping spot in my normal position again, while feeling a strong urge to go back to the reversed position, even pains trying to make me go back. Reversing my position made it harder to sleep but also disrupted a lot of the connection.

I then spent the rest of the night and the morning wandering the astral planes and trying to stay in control of my mind while various thoughtforms kept attacking in various ways, trying to steal loosh, weaken me, and control me.

Now the worst of it seems to be past but I don't think these bad vibes are going to stop until the clams are done going through my body.