Life may be shit for you OP but at least you don't have a herniated disk and pinched nerves that have given you daily pain and reduced ability to function like a physically healthy human being for the past year.
If there even is such a thing as a demiurge I rather live an ignorant and blissful life without being in pain whenever I'm sitting, lying down, sneezing, running, and shit.
Someone always has it worse, remember that OP and enjoy what you do have. Likewise, many have it worse than I do.
Keep that perspective in mind.