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Sex Achievements

1. Succubus Encounter - Fuck a succubus in a dream / while astral travelling.

2. Succubus Adept - Evoke a succubus and fuck her while in the waking state.

3. Astral Sex - Call up the astral light or a basic form, then draw in the spirit/awareness of a target into that form, and let it be shaped to them. Then have sex with them. Then confirm via skype/IRC/chat/email/whatever you successfully had sex with your target.

4. Astral Sex Adept I - Same as above but evocation this time, you will evoke the astral light or form in front of you, draw their awareness into it and have it shape to them, and have sex with them; while you remain in your physical body and they in the astral form. Confirm afterwards.

5. Astral Sex Adept II - This time your target remains in their physical body and you project to them to have sex with them.

6. Psychokinetic Sexual Assault - Make someone in public orgasm just by willing it.

7. Mental Influence Pro - Make someone in public get naked when entranced by you and touch themselves for you.

8. Psychokinetic Fucking - Be naked in room with someone else and fuck each other purely through psychokinetic power without ever actually touching yourselves or each other.

9. Love Potion - Imbue a glass of water with orgasmic energy so that anyone who drinks it will orgasm from doing so.

10. Go Fuck Yourself - Astral project out of your physical body and then have sex with yourself. You can for example suck your own dick in this way.

Sex Achievements II

These all require a partner physically with you… would be similar to the fap things, having sex with your partner as long as possible, etc. I won't bother writing out this section because…

>tfw no GF

Celibacy Achievements

1. No Fap - Do not fap at all for a set period of time no matter what. Avoid arousal, stimulation, etc.

2. No Acting On Arousal - Same as above except look at pornography and whatever else might tempt you and yet don't act. Try to be aroused constantly and for long periods of time but never touch yourself.

3. Arousal Kill - Get as intensely aroused as possible in situation where your sexual organ would seem to have mind of its own and then suddenly on command kill off your arousal in seconds by an application of the will.

4. Flaccid Fapper - Start fapping and will that you go flaccid even as sexual stimulation continues without stopping.

5. No Cum - Have orgasm without cumming.

6. No Orgasm - Cum without orgasm.

Misc

1. Arousal Control - Choose what should arouse you and become aroused by it. Choose what should not arouse you and don't get hard at all.

2. Gender Switch - Use the imagination to transfer your whole awareness into a body of the opposite gender and then have sex or fap, experiencing in detail what the other gender experiences when they fap/fug.

3. Merger - Achieving a merging of consciousness with a sexual partner in which you feel no separation and everything they think and feel you think and feel as well at same time, as if your consciousness occupies at once two bodies.

All these things should be recorded along with number of times fapped since you started fapping or if you don't know how many times you've already fapped in your life then start logging it now. Don't bother to be super detailed, you just update the counter each time after fapping, and if you manage to break any records in any of these categories you update that with the new value or status.

Shoulda used the degenerate flag

>>72583

>O.T.O. people say to just eat your loads

>eh

>every Crowley type I've met has appeared unhealthy and, coincidentally, really into himself

>>72583

to add to this:

>celibate route, two weeks in

>streak is ended by fucked up, disturbing sex dream

>feel the past two weeks were not only pointless, but kind of a setback

A nudge in the right direction would be great. This thread is only making things more confusing.

>>72741

Experience with fapping, broken down into stages (or phases?):

Stage 1 - Introduction:

>started fapping with someone for first time without meaning to

>just getting comfortable with the whole thing in this stage

>lots of cold tingly sensations like when I first saw porn at 12 by accident, the same you get when you're very afraid of being caught doing something wrong

>doesn't really feel like anything and I'm not very good or efficient at it

Stage 2 - Increasing Degeneracy:

>be given explicit permission to fap at anything I want

>still don't do it for awhile

>one day though, frustrated that I've been fapping for hours to faded memories alone and unable to cum, and given suggestion again

>start fapping to porn for first time

>guilty awful feel, feel like I'm a super degenerate Crowley, like absolute filth

>still no pleasure at all

>consider myself a worthless degenerate and think I have totally defiled myself so it doesn't matter what I do anymore, so try to fap to all kinds of strange things, but realize that the only thing I can fap to is benis in vagina, and breasts if I haven't fapped in awhile, but sodomy is revolting, ponies and anime are stupid, homosexuality makes me go completely soft even as I try to stroke myself and repulses me

Stage 3 - Pushing the Limits:

>fap as much as possible, constantly, make careful observations about the effects the whole time

>do this for like 2 weeks

>most I managed was I think 9 times in one day?

>every time I fap to porn, it becomes more difficult to fap each time

>more and more extreme stimulation is required

>to get to the 9th time I had to like play a whole bunch of clips on loop at once, and fap to them all together, with all the moaning being something akin to walking into a barn full of tons of geese making a lot of noise all at once

Stage 4 - The No Fap Stage:

>having just fapped as much as I could for like two weeks and becoming really desensitized decide to start doing no fap

>24 hours to start, then I fap, then I add on another 24 hours each time

>after first 24 hours I think I fapped to a woman and then to porn, fapped a couple times before starting 48 hours

>after that though, I only would fap once to a woman, and then I would try again from imagination and give up after awhile if I couldn't cum a second time from imagination alone

>after 72 hours of no fap, begin to notice actually experiencing some pleasure from fapping, not much but SOMETHING

>I am basically at this point just doing the no fap, then fapping once with a woman, then resuming no fap again

>pledge 96 hours and there's some intensity for maybe the first 48 hours, a bit of an actual desire to fap and not merely a desire to desire to fap, but unfortunately the desire to fap dies out and becomes a desire to desire to fap again like it always is before the rest of the time is up

>the 96 hours is completed but I have nobody to fap with immediately, so another day passes, and I end up fapping only after 110+ hours

Stage 5 - The Drought:

>at this point I don't want to do no fap anymore, the 96 hour challenge was long enough for me, and I don't feel going any longer is going to help sensitize me anymore as I already feel like I can easily cum to the slightest stimulation

>I want to focus on increasing pleasure now

>I fapped once to some erotica someone posted on /4chon/

>and I fapped one more time to some pornographic image just to confirm something; and indeed I felt absolutely no pleasure in it

Concerning Sex Magick Operations:

I have come to the conclusion that pornography, although I can fap to it, it drains me of something vital; it desensitizes and takes away from actual pleasure. Each time you fap to porn, you get nothing back in turn, and there is a decrease of pleasure until none remains. Then, even if you wait a long time, it will not matter; you can fap to porn and you will feel nothing. Same thing if you fap to someone that just doesn't return the favour at all. You can wait awhile and it'll become easier to cum to porn but no matter how long you wait, there will be no pleasure in it. It will rob you of pleasure in any subsequent sexual experiences and it will all have to be built up again. The only pleasure that can be felt must be in relation to a dynamic-vital principle which is derived from living sources which must successfully direct their energy to you and not accidentally into things having no special connection to you to convey the currents of vital energy and which only resemble you such as memories. Under certain conditions, a connection can be made, and this energy conveyed.

There is something to having an actual connection with a person that unlocks your emotional potential and arouses real desire within you. Only the desire of another person can act upon you and give rise to a sensation of real pleasure.

Another observation I have found is that fapping to memory alone results in a very strong but static image. It lacks vitality, it is frozen. The mental image absorbs the loosh and becomes stronger but it's missing a certain spark called dynamism; it is entirely lacking in that dynamic quality which animates and defines all life. There is dying off of desire, it all being absorbed into the image, and strengthening it in your mind; but it can not stir you, it can not give anything back.

Expanding upon my above observations concerning pouring loosh into static mental images, I consciously became aware of a way to sacrifice loosh, to make things happen. You essentially give up emotion and become number in the process, and the emotion given up in this way manifests along the lines of intent. I fixate my mind into a state of prayer and feel a certain pressure within me as I keep some part of my mind focused on what is to manifest; and I don't take it away from it even if I do other activities like reading something, writing something, listening to something. In fact when it comes to reading, it helps me in this meditative/prayer state of mind, as I can easily continue to exert this mental pressure and stay concentrated on what I am doing while reading. The whole time, it feels as if every thought and action is for the purpose of what I am trying to manifest, like every breath and thought and line of text read is to exert pressure upon the soul of the world (demiurge) to manifest the intention.

Concerning succubus and manipulations of the astral light, I am presently unable to make a strong, stable, contact with a succubus. This being due to a deficiency of desire; though I have an abundance of Will in this matter, I have not been able to turn desire for desire into an actual desire of sufficient strength. I need to cultivate an intense lust that must take on a life of its own. Everything so far dissolves, falls apart, fails to manifest properly, etc. it can not sustain itself long enough. It fails to spark, it won't take off.

( To give you an analogy, thoughtforms have their own emotional gravitation of sorts, weak ones are held together temporarily by the mind which is focusing on holding it all together in the given form, and the mental substance collapses/disperses as soon as the concentration is broken and the mental pressure to keep it together is taken away. If you have enough emotion/desire to dump into one though, it can become very stable, and express dynamic properties. It is also usually easier to re-form a thoughtform that has been made previously, as if some kind of pattern or mould has been set in the astral, and pouring emotion into it again it takes form in the impression that is already there. It comes to life, it becomes like a vortex of emotions, acting to draw in more mental substance and emotion into it to sustain its life longer. Otherwise it just runs on whatever charge was given it until it runs out. )

The exact formula here is:

A thoughtform is strengthened by the degree of emotion/desire backing its creation and the duration and repetitions of pouring astral energy into it. A thoughtform can be crafted with low-energy over a long period of time through extended concentration and repetitions of energy into it, or suddenly and all at once by an intense burst of emotion/desire (loosh) into it.

An emotional reaction to any experience, of any sort, vivifies it and draws it towards your centre for a time where it makes impressions upon you and lodges itself. Your centre being where your awareness wraps itself. May expand on this more later but I'm trying to write about sex magick here.

My attempts at evoking succubus have resulted in the following complications:

1. A succubus who lacked Earth; essentially an empty hologram who could not be felt, having no weight or solidity. Grasping her would seem like grasping air.

2. A succubus who upon being touched, instantly sapped me of loosh, and I completely lost my connection to the astral. This was something like an electrical/magnetic quality. I couldn't do anything with her.

3. Several succubus that were opaque and not properly manifested. Couldn't be heard, could only be partially seen, could not be felt. Mere shadows that burned out as soon as the attention was taken away from them in most cases. The strongest only lasting a few seconds of a lapse of attention.

Every time it's the same issue. Not enough lust. Need more loosh. Can't quite kickstart my succubus and hang onto her.

I have been able to, while in a natural and strong trance state I enter from time to time in which I receive visions very easily, and thoughts just pop into my mind 100% complete from external sources, use mere intent to cause multiple orgasm in a subject and to receive clear strong telepathic impressions from them. I was not able to feel anything of their body though or have astral sex with them. The only connection I felt from them was their own desire, which I then looped back at them, in much the same manner as discharging loosh into a mental image. I was aroused but never touched myself or made the effort at all to feel anything. I used what loosh I was getting from them to let the astral light register impressions of what was in their own mind letting me see what they see and to make them orgasm multiple times going from not aroused at all to orgasm in about 10 seconds followed by multiple subsequent orgasms. I didn't experience any pleasure myself in this process but was pleased with the results and the feedback I got. My subject was overwhelmed and I also noticed synchronicities in the days after and correspondences and other weird psychic phenomena that played out around me and in attuned individuals.

I have many more experiments planned. Right now I need a better understanding of what's going on when one feels actual pleasure within oneself and all the dynamics involved in this process, I need more loosh to power a succubus, I need to master the pleasure aspect, and I need to continue my observations of how people react to a variety of things I say while I hold certain mental states, intentions, and emotions in mind. I have to figure out the intricacies of stoking desire in others and making them act on it. I need stronger connections and I need to observe and be aware of all of what is flowing/passing over these connections. I need subjects that will give reliable feedback, will participate consciously or unconsciously in what I have planned for them, and not NOPE out of things.

Misc Notes:

• I may wish to explore the effects of fapping to erotica. It should be of a different class then pornography, memories, voice, and people. It probably strengthens the imagination more as it guides the imagination.

• I have so far fapped exactly 61 times.

• I as of right now have fapped twice today with a girl. (but when I wrote this, it had been several days of having not fapped)

• The longest time I have fapped non-stop was about 1 hour and 30 minutes before cumming, my dick hurt immensely for days after this.

• The shortest was about 30 seconds.

• Most times in one day is 9.

• An average fap length of about 10-15 minutes seems to be the most ideal, not too fast, but not painfully long.

• I sometimes experience energy surges around the sacral chakra with various results.

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