>>79251
I know you can't into magic (yet), Epyc Wynn/Quaurgate, and there's a whole lot more for you to learn.
Everything one can imagine has a certain polarity, and so has your mental influence.
Influence can be both negative and positive, devastating or constructional, going against the grain or flowing with the stream.
Furthermore, influence can be achieved through a number of means, like >>79320 said.
The 'true' magic is not only about love and kindness, but sorrow, grief and hatred as well. 'Magic' contains it all, and one cannot ignore one side of the coin and still expect the other one to be the true side; they're both equally important.
That said, there's nothing wrong with kindness, on the contrary! It's a noble yet hard path to walk. Be sure to protect yourself and stay true to your path.