Help me solve a dilemma /fringe/. I know that I can ask God for a wife and receive one right away. I know that God will understand my intention and also that I want certain qualities and so on in her. A [redacted] also told me that the most important thing is to find someone that wants to walk the same path as you.
I think about some of the attractive, beautiful women around my area and various other women as well of varied quality. I know that no matter who I am around, I could reprogram anyone completely, and kill out the awful things in them so they can be worthy of me.
I also notice that the younger a woman is the better she is to be molded to me. Older women have the ideas of other more inferior men in them and are more corrupted, a bigger mess.
There is also the problem too that the mundanes I live with such as my parents who I absolutely loath, resent, and hate (even though I do only nice things for them all the time and never reveal my deep contempt for them because of the dependency) are a constant corrupting, bluepilling, disrupting, terrible influence that would make me hate any GF I'd have as she'd surely absorb some of their mental crap from them.
The more I think about it I'd rather make a woman from scratch, created directly out of the divine astral light condensed into physical form, and of such a high quality and perfection that I could only feel love and loyalty to her… OR I might leave the populated areas of this planet and go live underground in some remote place where I won't be bothered as I continue my perfection alone without any companion at all.
[redacted] I know also withdrew from everyone and that just led him to suicide attempt.
My ideal is to form an enduring, perfect, harmonious, lasting relationship that continues for all the hundreds of years I will be incarnate here on Earth. However even many of the other men who have endured for centuries just ended up having a long succession of wives… none truly worthy of them.
I can only give this ideal one shot. If it fucks up, I would have to reincarnate again without my memories to have another shot at doing this all right. This has been one really incredibly painful incarnation so far, so much work, so much effort, it'll be a complete shame if I don't ever get to relax and enjoy the fruits of my efforts at any point ever during my present incarnation.
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>Talk briefly to one of the best young women I can find in my area, connect myself to her with the astral light, then ask God about her and take a deep look into her soul and into our probable futures?
>Materialize a GF directly out of the astral light using the intent of a woman who is a true perfect match for me and will uplift my soul further in its ascent towards immortality/The All?
>Forget about a woman because this demiurge run world won't let you have a perfect GF without her being ruined both by your own imperfections that still exist within you and by the mundanes all around you? Give up entirely on the ideal of a perfect and lasting pairing of two souls set upon the same path and instead remain detached and alone while living in the least populated regions of the Earth, underground?