>>102200
OK, first of all, there's a question thread for this kind of questions.
Second, as others have said, you sound like you have some psychological (astral, in Montalk terms I guess) problems that might be causing a reflection upon your physical. I believe this judging by the very small amount of detail you gave in the OP. So call it a shamanic illness if you will.
How is your relationship with your parents? How would you feel, say, about having a beer with your dad (or a juice or whatever), or partaking in any common hobbies you guys might have (or he has)? Have you ever done anything like that? How did it go?
Don't drink hot distilled water for 4 days unless you want to seriously fuck your shit up, given your already weak state both mentally and physically.
This is a random article, but you can find many on the Internet:
http://www.mercola.com/article/water/distilled_water.htm
>Fasting using distilled water can be dangerous because of the rapid loss of electrolytes (sodium, potassium, chloride) and trace minerals like magnesium, deficiencies of which can cause heart beat irregularities and high blood pressure. Cooking foods in distilled water pulls the minerals out of them and lowers their nutrient value.
Also, checked.