>>61769
Let me help you wit my history
I tough that I was awake (red pill)
I am a sociopath, with a long story of being a troll , cynic, tougher as fuck and the go to guy wen shit goes down , very practical.
I started going /pol/ becose /b/ was not fun anymore the gore and traps just lost his original apeal
There I begun to fuck with he racist becose they are easy targets ,Virgin middle aged guys whit paranoid tendency , really fun to poke,
Then I started to read about the holohoax ,thanks to /pol/ I tough that I finally saw the ligh , fuck the tinfoil were right, wat else is fake?
August came and started to be involved in the September happening threads , a little actual fear , like I never felt began to creep my life, I was always a fedora meditator so I just start to pray before every meditation to God, and offers to stop fapping and smoking weed for a month just to ask God for forgiveness, did heavy meditation during September and I begun to dream again
Dreams of awakening and scaping from prison were my first dreams in years since I was a kid , I begun to look for lucid dreaming and having fun dreaming
read the entire montalk site and fucking matrix and number signtins begun, I tough this was fun , besides the irrational fear of Alex Jones crapp I tough all of this was fun
I dismissed everything like fuck they troll me ,don't believe everything you read and was ready to be plugged in to the matrix again, I begun to smoke weed again, I was doing chacras meditation by the time for a few days and I tough this is crapp I don't feel diferent is the same like regular meditation, let me smoke weed,
Hit it hard baby , then I look down to my dick, shit what is this?, a purple circle in front of my dick! is this a chacra?
Because I was smoking I begun to rotate with mi hand and all the disk apear, I did never had any illusions not even on lsd, not ever find something that I could not explain and rotation to thoose disk were subreal I remember rotating all of them up to the sky
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Welcome to kundalini hell
Anon everything has changed, I am still dealing whit this , my mind is kinda broke now and I Been dealing with HEAVY suicidal toughs, now I don't have any doubts about GOD and bohemian rhapsody make sense for first time in my life, remember anon I was a tough cynical sociopath whit no feelings whatsoever whit a lot of experience in mindfulness meditation and trully awakening make me a soft bag of feels , who ask himself every day if living is worth, don't worry I will not kill myself, that is up to God, but I can not fantom if this were to happen in mass scale to the regular Joe blue pill
People will seek the true when ready, and wen they are ready we need to be here to guide then for a good path , be patient.