/fringe/ - Fringe

Oh just for clarity's sake, being aroused is like a minor loss but still a win, touching myself a bit is a somewhat bigger loss but still a win, cumming is a loss, orgasm is total defeat, and the other stuff is just the measure of what you're all doing to challenge my Will and make me lose.

Strange phenomena already happening and noted but I'm certainly not fapping yet and not aroused.

Sad how you're not following WWA's words.

>>73107

What exactly is your objection anon?

>>73108

nvm, peacock.

>>73109

Huh what? Please explain. Is this some trick of yours to try and get me to fap? D-don't l-leave m-me. ;_;

>>73110

I will tell you, but not now.

>>73113

Tell me what? Is this maybe critical to something important that I may wish to accomplish?

>>73114

>Is this maybe critical to something important that I may wish to accomplish?

Yes.

>>>73115

Oh well are you going to tell me it after I succeed yet again at no fap and fail to fail, or are you going to tell me when I finally fail and may rejoice in the failure?

>i shall not fap for 24 hours

…is that not normal?

you're just proving you have a strong willpower against others will

gj but i'm not sure if it's worth a thread when most people here are armchair occultists (guilty) or uncaring.

>>73119

Normal in what sense?

I think the most potent challenge would be one is increasingly distantly spaced faps.

If I didn't do it like this, well, according to regular models concerning celibacy all the desire to fap is supposed to die off anyways after a certain peak and then flat-line indefinitely.

So if I keep extending it like this I should hopefully find a point of maximum temptation in which hopefully I will finally lose.

I also impervious to the influence of erotica, pornography, etc.

The strongest attack would be a direct connection, which I can feel explicitly, but I'll just transmute the energy before it overwhelms me or send it back to the other person in one quick shock that will cause them to orgasm.

Just felt a thought slep into my mind to masturbate but dispelled and crushed it within I think about 1/5th of a second. It didn't stand a chance. Is that the best you can do?

It probably doesn't help that my room has been so heavily and repeatedly cleansed it has a different temperature, different smell, and other weird properties that are felt even by the mundanes that ever happen to approach close or to enter. No spirits can oppose me right now.

Upload a picture of your finger

“Seek in the heart the source of evil, and expunge it. It lives fruitfully in the heart of the devoted disciple, as well as in the heart of the man of desire. Only the strong can kill it out. The weak must wait for its growth, its fruition, its death. And it is a plant that lives and increases throughout the ages. It flowers when the man has accumulated unto himself innumerable existences. He who will enter upon the path of power must tear this thing out of his heart. And then the heart will bleed, and the whole life of the man seem to be utterly dissolved. This ordeal must be endured; it may come at the first step of the perilous ladder which leads to the path of life; it may not come until the last. But, O disciple, remember that it has to be endured, and fasten the energies of your soul upon the task. Live neither in the present nor

the future, but in the eternal. This giant weed cannot flower there; this blot upon existence is wiped out by the very atmosphere of eternal

all passions, such as hatred, envy, malice, jealousy, desire for revenge, self‐glorification, and self‐exaltation; are also a part of it. Low pride is one of its most subtle and dangerous manifestations, and one which returns again, and again, after we think we have cast it off—each return being in a more subtle form—physical pride, being succeeded by the pride of the intellect—pride in psychic attainments— pride in spiritual development and growth—pride in moral worth, chastity and character—the “I am holier than thou” pride—and so on. Again and again does pride, the tempter, come to bother us. Its existence is based upon the delusion of separateness, which leads us to imagine that we have no connection with other manifestations of life, and which causes us to feel a spirit of antagonism and unworthy rivalry toward our fellow beings, instead of recognizing the fact that we are all parts of the One Life—some far back struggling in the mire of the lower stages of the road—others traveling along the same stage of the journey as ourselves—others still further advanced—but all on the way—all being bits of the same great Life. Beware of Pride—this most subtle enemy of advancement—and supplant it with the thought that we are all of the same origin—having the same destiny before us—having the same road to travel— brothers and sisters all—all children of God—all little scholars in Life’s great Kindergarten. Let us also realize that while each must stand alone before he is able to pass the test of initiation— yet are we all interdependent, and the pain of one is the pain of all—the sin of one is the sin of all—that we are all parts of a race working toward race improvement and growth—and that love and the feeling of brotherhood is the only sane view of the question. "~Some Light on the Path by William Walker Atkinson. (258-260)

>>73139

>>73144

>>73145

it's a crime to delete these pictures

>>73129

>Just felt a thought slep into my mind to masturbate but dispelled and crushed it within I think about 1/5th of a second. It didn't stand a chance. Is that the best you can do?

If you're having uninvited sexual thoughts shoved into your mind, you are being raped. You deserve better. contact the local shelter

Had morning wood for no apparent reason awhile ago, I just got out of the astral and NOTHING I just experienced was remotely sexual, so don't know why I had morningwood. Didn't fap.

>>73145

>>73144

>>73139

Taking a good long look at these. Not even aroused but these are perfect women and multiple women / harams oh my….

>>73169

ayy

Demiurge is stepping up its game now and trying to seduce me with physical women. Just 6 hours to go… this could only get more intense with a visit from a succubus that seems physically materialized.

>>73213

>>73136

>>73106

i urge my fellow /fringe/ posters to stay woke

>>73224

Also 222 is:-

dubai

the age of kali

hail eris

hitler

>>73222

>second pic

Where did you get that book? I have it, but I cannot remember from where. It feels as if I got it for some divine reason. Either that or I was just really tired.

>>73231

some canadian (not smiley btw) on the astral plane recommended it

gave me a bookzz.org link

>>73232

Huh, well I can't astral project so that's not how I got it.

From what I've read so far, it's a pretty good book.

Every woman right now wants my attention and is getting extra seductive, just 4 hours to go.

>>73233

I myself saw that book up on /4chon/ and downloaded it from there.

>>73222

tfw

>>73238

>Every woman right now wants my attention and is getting extra seductive, just 4 hours to go.

That's not fapping :)

>I myself saw that book up on /4chon/ and downloaded it from there.

I feel like that's where I got it from as well.

>>73245

It is if I don't have enough power to fug them purely with the astral D. 24 hours spent mostly doing other magick shit and reading is probably not quite enough time to do that unless the woman herself is highly developed in astral magicks

[the seduction intensifies'

2 hours to go… just 2 hours… *le sweating man with towel.jpg*

24 hours is up, I have won this challenge, and I can fap now

>>73268

dont do it anon

get those women that were giving you attention

you'll let us down if you dont

>>73273

It's just a trick of the demiurge. They are already acting different now that the challenge is up.

>>73275

well… if thats what you want i can always post some creepy/gross shit to help you abstain from fapping.

>>73277

I don't need help not fapping :/. It's been like an hour now and I still can't fap.

Just fapped with someone and I felt the most I've felt so far.

Fuck yes.

Maybe tomorrow or in a few hours I will renew the challenge + 48 hours although I'm not likely to fap again before starting the next challenge.

ur so gay

Your thread is degenerate and you should feel bad.

If you want progress reporting go to /r/nofap or use a fucking timer.

I read your post thinking you already were a nofapper and have done a long streak. Then I read:

>[…24 hours starting with the creation of this thread, no matter what, I shall not fap;…]

>nigga wut

It wouldn't surprise me if you had anything to do with the other fap thread.

Come back when you have done a successful 30 day streak without breaking a sweat. 24 hours is easy after you have relapsed once, even 48 hours is easy. The difficulty starts at day 4.

Pleb tier, saged thread.

>>73306

>use a timer

>what are timestamps in posts

>>73343

>OP thinks a couple of days of no fap impresses /fringe/

Come back when you have enough willpower to go months or even years without touching your junk for the purposes of pleasure.

>>73351

You just don't understand. Ah well. Maybe you will get it soon enough.

I am now pledging 48 hours no fap as of this post.

Once 48 hours has elapsed since this post was made I will have prevailed. I challenge everyone to make me fail, to do everything you can to instill lust into me, and make me cave into a desire to fap. Make this as hard on me as possible. Throw everything you got at me. You can't make me fap.

>>73351

I don't think that at all and it doesn't take willpower for me to not fap. It takes willpower for me to fap.

>>73306

I suppose so? I am gutting my soul for what loosh I can get but there's not much left. I'm pretty empty. Are you telling me to use reddit and talk to the mundanes over there to tell them to seduce me with magick? I don't even know how to use that shitty site. Fucking reddit shill. I only use imageboards.

>It wouldn't surprise me if you had anything to do with the other fap thread.

What? I have never ever lost a no fap challenge ever and I haven't ever made a no fap thread before. I just don't feel the regular no fap threads are tough enough, I want to piss off the demiurge, and challenge any wizards that feel up to the task to fuck up my plans. They can't win though. Nobody can. I am too powerful. It is as simple as; don't fap.

I am now doing 48 hours. I don't care that you think it's easy, not fapping for years is easy, this is XxXtremeNoFapping because regular no fapping is 2easy.

You think 4 days is difficult? Maybe after the 48 hours no fap I'll just square it instead of doing 36 hours no fap. Hmmm… We'll see.

>>73351

I have never once fapped for the purpose of pleasure so whatever.

>implying that porn is not the addiction

Enjoy your dopamine rush delusions lmoa

>>73374

I can not get addicted to anything as hard as I try.

>>73374

You got dopamine rush from checking for new posts and posting yours

There is something wrong with me. How do I experience a dopamine rush? Why can't my body produce any dopamine?

>>73401

You asked this question here to get a response that will solve your problem. You asked it because of dopamine reward system …

Checking threads for new replies or checking for new mail etc. is because of dopamine rushes you get rewarded with. It's not like you clicked the /fringe/ tab and are now reading this post accidentally.

By the way, it's logical that if you stop fapping, you'll experience eating an apple, listening to music, or browsing the Internet slightly more intensely. I don't know what the fuck are people even arguing about. It's up for everybody to decide if they want to get their kicks from fapping or from listening to music.

This whole thread sounds like one of those chastity fetishists, they get off on more the idea of not being permitted to fap rather than the fapping itself. By posting this thread and seeking attention, you are deriving pleasure by exposing your sexuality (or whatever's left of it) or announcing your submission…

the nofap movement gets the same excitation from talking about (non)masturbation as other people get from masturbation. you are not transcending your need for sexual pleasure, you're simply substituting it for something equally stupid

>>73357

>Make this as hard on me

heh

To any no-fap enthusiasts out there. Please make sure to get actual sex if you're not going to masturbate. The prostate is meant to be used regularly. Long term lack of ejaculation can cause damage and ultimately prostate cancer.

Random source (you can easily google better ones): >>>http://www.harvardprostateknowledge.org/does-frequent-ejaculation-help-ward-off-prostate-cancer

>>73488

Very true. Just yesterday I had fapped without fapping for a while. My semen was brown. I looked it up and I apparently had blood in my semen. On the same website it said almost word for word what you just said: if you don't fap, your prostate gets congested. Nofap is a complete joke designed by the Illuminaughty to make us less healthy.

>>73495

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

God damn it, I still have a day left to go, and I have women wanting to fap with me and desperate to fuck me, and I'm having to tell them I am in the middle of a no fap challenge with the demiurge and can't right now, got to wait still until tomorrow! This is even more hardcore than last time. I'm holding out well though so far, haven't touched myself or anything.

God damn this is just amazing, the demiurge is one hardcore nigga, throwing everything he's got at me, but I know it's just a trick and I must stand my ground.

>>73410

I don't believe you anon as I feel constantly miserable no matter what I do and never want to wake up. I don't believe dopamine is motivating my actions. I feel no pleasure in anything at all, I have the most severe anhedonia. You might ask why I don't kill myself well I am trying to fix myself.

Eating food, fapping, playing games (I stopped), everything has no effect on me. I just keep feeling miserable. Only reason I do anything at all is I spend my time trying to find solutions to my misery to make it stop.

Literally nothing I do is pleasurable and I do not display any emotions around other people because I don't really have any or what I do feel is intensely vague.

>>73414

I don't have a need for fapping. I have a desire to desire sex / to possess sexuality.

I am not aiming as most people are to transcend sexuality, I am hoping that I will lose, that I will be overcome by sexual urges. It has literally never happened though once in my life.

I am completely missing an aspect of experience that is accessible to most people and I want to know what the fuck it's like god damn it.

I keep thinking, do I really have a great will power if I don't fap for years at a time, or is there something wrong with me?

How is my will being tested if I don't feel immense temptation? I feel no temptation. Fapping is a choice I make as part of an experiment.

My hopes are that somehow as a result of this thread I will at some point lose but I'm afraid I'm never going to lose ;_;.

I'm trying to develop an addiction but can't.

>>73488

Bullshit study is bullshit, why don't you read the material on anti-sex.ru (anti-sexual stronghold)? Besides cancer is the easiest thing to cure by occult means via energy manipulation. I started studying the occult intensely years ago and by the time I'm like 70 or whatever age people get cancer I will have surely long ago transcended this plane of existence and know everything there is to know about magick.

>>73495

I have not fapped for years and never had any problem with my cum, it was white when I finally did fap. I have a perfect diet, meditate lots, am very fit, etc.

You have some weird problem but it is not a problem for celibates.

>>73512

>is there something wrong with me?

This, there is something wrong with you.

>>73358

I don't get this thread.

I'd like to participate for fun and for 2-4 weeks unless a certain someone wants to do stuff.

>>73488

>>73495

I think you guys are wrong. Mantak Chia says he went without orgasm for years before he fathered a child. Read Cultivating Male Sexual Energy.

I recently went 1 week of no fap and NO PORN, which is arguably more important than no fap.

It was great, felt like I had a lot more energy, went outside more, played more vidya, shitposted less etc.

By like the 5th or 6th day simply staring at pictures of hot women, nude or not was enough to arouse and give me a boner. But having given myself a porn addiction that has not gone away I eventually ended up browsing some of the more usual porn I normally do and started edging to it, by that point it was just a matter of time till I ended up fapping, waking up with morning wood again etc.

And then by the 8th day I just fapped to the shit and felt regret, then the next day the same and now its like weeks later and I'm lethargic and feel dulled again, devoting half my days to fapping, or just browsing porn.

It's not enough to just nofap for 24 or 48 hours, you need to fucking do it for a week, and then resist the temptation to "test" yourself by browsing porn, and then when you do inevitably fap the hardest part is not continuing to fap and browse porn afterwards for weeks before you feel up to the task again of doing nofap.

So congrats on 24 hours OP, congrats on 48 hours even, but its nothing in the long term if you can only last 3 or 5 days before fapping all the while edging or peeking at porn ocassionally.

mfw I have completed 48 hours no fap now but now I need someone to fap with me or I could end up going 72 hours without fapping by accident :/

>>73567

I need to find some way to fap right now or I'm going to fuck up my plans. It's been well over 48 hours and I just don't know what to do. My experiment's going to be all wrecked.

Someone send me a succubus or something.

tfw going to fail to fap

welp, I have no choice really, although I never prepared properly for this; going to have to try and evoke a succubus today

Wish me luck.

Wow, I tried to evoke a succubus, and I just got a tiger instead.

I tried again and I got an octopus.

Going to keep trying…

>>73357

I accidentally didn't fap for 3 days but just now fapped with a girl.

Should I pledge 72 hours next like I originally intended or since I fucked up on the 48 hours thing and went 72 without fapping, should my next pledge be 96 hours?

>>73514

If you don't believe me look it up. Google, "brown ejaculation". You'll see a medical website that answers questions.

And just because you don't ejaculate brown semen doesn't necessarily mean anything. Ejaculating brown semen just means that your prostate tore a little bit from either not ejaculating enough in a certain time period or ejaculating too much. The website says that not ejaculating regularly causes your prostate to get clogged. I'm obviously not a doctor, but I definitely encourage you to ask one. Don't take my word for it. And better yet, ask a urologist.

>>73144

>>73139

Who is this girl? She is so fine. I'm not sure if it's the same person.

>>73595

No fuck your suggestions, I've never had any problems with prolonged periods of no fap stretching years, read:

http://www.antisex.info/index.php/articles/27

http://www.antisex.info/en/go.htm

That prostate thing is quoted all the time by fappers as an excuse to fap and it's bullshit.

See also: thousands of years of celibacy amongst ascetic monks from various traditions the world over.

>>73608

People who fap experience pleasure during 10 minute fap sessions and 4 second orgasms. You, on the other hand, stretch it thorough the whole day. You're experiencing 3% of an orgasm per hour in form of elevated mood and good feel, as you hear pleasant song, or a nice picture.

I just wandered into this thread.

>>73512

Well couldn't you just say you're addicted to wanting an addiction. You're desire for desiring sex is something that apparently drives you, find joy in that.

The feeling that you're missing out on something is definitely a part of the human experience. I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but then again there's probably something wrong with me so who the hell am I to say.

>>73511

I like you.

I hope you find what you're looking for, even if it's to find nothing at all.

Should I pledge 96 hours?

I meant to do 48 hours but it ended up being 72+. So next step should probably be 96 instead of 72? or should I just pledge 72?

>>73629

You can pledge however much you wish, but unless that's what's turning you on I doubt you're going to get much pleasure out of it.

What are you into anon? Do you have any favorite sexual fantasies?

>>73630

>You can pledge however much you wish, but unless that's what's turning you on I doubt you're going to get much pleasure out of it.

uhhhh

>What are you into anon? Do you have any favorite sexual fantasies?

Nothing really. I just test my mind and body in every way possible, whether that's fasting for long periods of time, or eating as much food as possible, or fapping as much as possible for a period of time, or not fapping, and so on… always testing the limits.

I'm not naturally inclined to fantasize about sex, I am not like avoidant of it, I just don't do it normally though unless I decide upon it as an experiment.

Just fapped one more time via imagination (mostly memory) of girl I was fapping with last time and this was legitimately pleasurable, not exactly orgasmic or mind blowing, but it certainly didn't feel like nothing it actually felt good. So I'm clearly making progress.

As of this post, I am pledging:

96 hours of no fap

No matter what I shall not fap. Do everything in your power to make me fail, cause me to fap, etc.

Demiurge you shall fail to seduce me just like you've failed every other time.

>>73635

I don't have "sinful shameful desires". I aim to create any desires I want and amp them up to any degree of intensity and to be able to stay afloat of them at the same time as well as to entertain them with exhaustion and so on; in other words complete mastery over desire.

>>73636

One odd thing to note, I didn't experience any burst of pleasure in this case with cumming, and only felt it while fapping up to the point of cumming. I don't know why I still don't experience pleasure connected to the last part of it, and why previously I didn't really feel anything at all throughout the whole process.

>>73636

>>73644

>I don't have "sinful shameful desires".

>I don't know why I still don't experience pleasure connected to the last part of it, and why previously I didn't really feel anything at all throughout the whole process.

>If I don't want to have fun why am I not having fun?

Update: I believe I have transmuted the desire to desire to fap/sex into an actual desire to fap/sex now. I am experiencing a genuine and not merely intellectual desire to fap. It's only been about 40 minutes since I last fapped. I will win though this 96 hour challenge, even though I feel an actual URGE right now.

>>73647

What?

Update 2: I feel the lust in my aura and feel energy cascades and parts of my mind and various cell clusters desiring me to fap. I feel some shifts in my subconscious. This is amazing, I am happy the real challenge has now begun. If I win this time, I won't feel sad, it will legitimately feel like an accomplishment.

Update 3: met a succubus who wanted to make me fap, she started playing with herself and needed me to fap to get stronger I guess, but I still didn't

presently rockhard and trying to think of any loopholes out of this but can't, dismissing each thought from my mind

I really wish I could just fap right now. There's still 86 hours left to go though.

>>73659

try to massage your perineum to achieve prostate orgasm.(keep pushing and deeply massaging that area until you feel relaxed and aroused)

Also try to edge the whole remaining time of this nofap.

>>73661

>Also try to edge the whole remaining time of this nofap.

Why? Sounds dangerous and not sure if it would help me achieve my goals or not.

You confuse me

You claim to be the no fap master and go for a whopping 24 hours of non-fapping??? Obviously you have a low willpower not to fap. Go for a period of 2 months and then you might be able to claim the title of minor abstinator

>>73664

It is harder and more challenging, also make sure you don't cum while edging or you fail.

>>73664

>Sounds dangerous

Chicken.

>>73665

Read the whole thread before responding, already completed a 72 hour no fap, and right now on a 96 hour no fap, and in the past I have gone years without fapping but I'm trying to find ways to make it even harder on me.

>>73666

>>73667

Hmmmmm… that 666 GET.

I'm trying to build a massive amount of lust loosh to power something you know. I need it to become an all-consuming hyper-intense desire that energizes a strong thoughtform.

>>73139

I'll never understand how other men can actually fap to women, with their annoying voices and bloated chests and asses. It's like an anti-boner. Of course, most men disgust me as well …

Perhaps I am not human after all.

>>73684

You forgot to post with Special Snowflake flag.

>>73684

Because we're biologically meant to be attracted to them? Ignoring anomalies like homosexuality of course.

>>73666

Did it a couple times now and still haven't failed.

About 24 hours left to go and this is legitimately the toughest challenge yet. I think I will be satisfied I've been truly tested when this over, although not merely by lust, in so many different ways; so many different angles of attack trying to make me fap.

Completed the 96 hours (4 days and nights) no fap challenge successfully. Also still haven't fapped as I want to fap with a grill not to porn so got to find a grill to fap with.

Any tips, OP? Most I've gone is a month. Usually I get on a good streak and then once a week I get an insanely strong urge.

Just fapped with a girl now.

>>73893

There are multiple ways to do it.

1. Immediately think thoughts that make sexuality seem repulsive and disgusting anytime sex enters your mind. – can be somewhat effective

2. Drain off the desire into thoughtforms. – Highly effective and main method I used for not fapping for years. It's as simple as imagining something while using your lust and discharging the lust into the thoughtform. You will eventually run out of lust and lose erection before long or end up with a very powerful thoughtform. You don't touch/stroke yourself and you actually try to feel as much lust as you can to feed the thoughtform. The more complex and advanced the thoughtform you are trying to make the more likely you run out of loosh before it takes a stable and self-sustaining form.

3. Stoic indifference to your emotions - this I use to break any addiction and to endure absolutely anything whether it's extreme physical trials I've had to deal with or it's sex or something else. Just be completely indifferent to whatever emotions wash over you, whether it's lust or pain or sufffering or euphoria, you remain detached from it. Highly effective. I just give 0 shits about what I'm feeling. Look into stoicism to understand what I'm talking about.

4. Purging the sexual nature - through suggestion, association, draining off, and dislike of sex you can turn yourself asexual pretty quick. Not recommended though because then you don't have useful sex energy at your disposal for charging thoughtforms and you may suffer a decrease in vitality and your body changes to be more androgynous and it sure takes awhile to regain your sexuality afterwards.

5. Conditioning yourself so you have to find expression of sexuality through mediums which are not easily accessible. This can be as simple as pledging only to have astral sex for example or only to use psychokinesis to fap. You will tend to exhaust your loosh trying to do this and end up not fapping.

2, 3, and 5 are the best methods.