>>78854
>Do you mean that you simply stay aware of the area? Do you do any programing, like trying to smooth the area out? I am completly sure that there is some weird fear based imprinting on my first and third circuit. Do you mean that simple awareness would be enough to override it?
Yeah. No need to try to make it feel a certain way. You're getting the new feeling from the more detailed awareness. You'll have to intentionally remember the new sensation when you want to work against your imprint, but it'll become a reflex, and eventually you won't have to pay any attention to it.
>Also, could you expand on you contemplating in to the pentacle suit? I am thinking of getting a tarot deck for archetypal research myself.
A tarot deck is definitely worth it. I just use a Rider-Waite deck myself, but I've heard that picking the one that you like the most is best at the beginning because you might be more receptive to it.
So, a tarot suit corresponds to one of the circuits, an element, and a psychological faculty.
The ace introduces the general sense of the faculty, and the cards numbered two through ten symbolize information on that circuit that need to be integrated successfully in order to be intelligent with that faculty.
The court cards represent ways the suit manifests as personalities, the page being a more childlike awareness, the knight having an extreme of the suit's energy, the queen embodying various qualities, and the king taking outward action.
Contemplation on the pentacles means using the cards to reorganize your first-circuit intelligence. Your own psychology interacts with the cards to give you the information you can work with to grow.
The faculty of the suit is important to this. You don't want to use one faculty, circuit, or suit in place of another. Form a first circuit intuition of the first circuit, not a third-circuit map, etc.
Also don't get too lost. You could meditate endlessly on a single card. Focus on what gets you gains in the circuit of your choice. Cover everything in general, and then work on the areas you have a problem understanding.