Do you do this out of a desire for self punishment, or the wish to save others from torture through ego-fulfilling sacrifice?
It is pain and suffering that teaches. You chose to come here and suffer. Luckily, the pendulum will swing and you will be joyous. Until then, pain will drive you. There must be cold for there to be heat, and there must be suffering so there can be joy.
There would be no point to sacrificing yourself so others are free from pain, as we are all one. Your suffering is our suffering, for you are us.